August 20, 2013

one step closer

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Summer is slowly coming to it's end and soon fall, with all the beautiful colors, will knock on our doors. Fall is usually full of changes and I'm glad to say that a change is waiting for me too.

I had a dream when I was 15. A dream to be a photographer. After three years of media-assistant studies, I was left standing with my dream which I slowly started to forget. I found it more interesting to build up an adult life than pursuing my dream. But to be honest, the biggest reason was that I was scared. So I chose the easy way, which ment working with something that wasn't for me and only made me unhappy.

Especially last year was mentally really though for me. I struggled with myself in every kind of way and felt like I would never get any further with my life. Everyday I was jealous of those who knew what they want or already did the amazing things they wanted to do. I was miserable and stuck and I didn't recognize myself anymore. In the end I got tired of myself being sad. On New Year's eve I promised myself that my goal for 2013 is simply to become happier. Even if my thoughts and mood didn't change over a night, I realized that my own happiness comes from myself and from no one else. It was a good start.

Days and months past by and I worked with my mind everyday. I collected cheesy quotes of happiness. I wrote down everything that brought joy to my life. I started to notice the beauty of simple things. But most important, I stopped listening to the negative people around me. This really worked for me and slowly I came back to the point where I could enjoy life again. But still, something was missing.

This summer I realized how many amazing people I have around me. They're rocking their own thing, but instead of being jealous, this time I got really inspired. Somewhere around here my long lost dream hit me with a bang. Suddenly I just knew what I had to do and the very same day I applied for a school. For the first time I listened to my heart instead of my head and I knew this was going to be my time.

After many years of being totally lost it feels big to say that I got in to a one year photography school that starts next week!
I'm really excited about this new journey and even if I don't have a clue where this path will take me, I'm positive that I will enjoy this path and work extra hard to achieve the best results. I could've done this years ago, but this feels like the perfect time because I'm more ready now than ever.

This became a little longer than I thought, but I wanted to share a piece of my story and my feelings. Maybe some of you can recognize these kind of feelings or are struggling with something similar right now. All I want to say is that, no matter how lost you are at the moment just don't forget to enjoy the beauty of the little things, because this life is full of them. The rest will follow at it's own time and when you want something bad enough it'll come to you in one way or another.

Follow your dreams, not your fears.

16 comments:

  1. Aw Jenny reading your story truly inspires me to not give up on my dreams. I wish you the best for this new chapter of your life. You're truly a great photographer and I'm sure you're going to be one of the best :)

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    1. Thank you Emma ♥ I'm happy if I could give some inspiration and you should never give up on your dreams, I believe in you and I hope you believe in yourself too! :)

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  2. Yay Jenny!!!! Congratulations! I'm so happy for you. Your photos are so beautiful, I love that you will be able to hone in on your talents and share it with the world. Your story is remarkable yet ironic because honestly I feel like you are such an inspiration. Your beauty, kindness, style, outfits, photography, the list goes on. I'm so happy you have found yourself. Can't wait to see everything you learn! xo

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    1. Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU love! You're always so kind and sweet and your words make me smile big time! ♥

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  3. gorgeous love! I like how you captured these flowers!

    <3Amanda
    feast.fashion.faves

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  4. Omg I really really really adore this blog post, its like it's also talks about my life. We have different dreams and it feels so good if we know that we're on the right path towards it. Just like you, I'm also into photography SO MUCH. Some people may say that it's not a "practical" goal but as long as you're happy with it, I know you can do your best and become very successful! Good luck on your photography classes! Btw, I also have one! Hahahaha :)

    Thanks also for your thoughtful comment on my blog :)

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    1. Thank you Marielle! ♥ Like you said, it really doesn't matter if it's practical or not as long as you love what you do! :) So cool that you have photography classes too, it's so much fun with creative classes!

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  5. As long we are alive,never is to late!!Congratulations and good luck with the photography school.I wish you the best.
    Kisses

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    1. You're so right! :) Thank you so much love! ♥

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  6. Your photography is beautiful. Congratulations you beautiful, brave, strong woman you. I think it's incredible that you not only saw your dream but are working adamantly at achieving it. It takes a woman with no fear to do what's best for her, what makes her happy, and eff the rest. I love it. I'm so proud of you and I know that things can only go up from here :)

    I'm taking away something from this post. If you want something bad enough, it'll come to you in one way or another. Thank you for that :)

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    1. There's not enough words to thank you for your very sweet and thoughtful comment! Everything you said is so true and you're just too precious ♥ Thank you beautiful!

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  7. super pretty photo's!

    xxx
    Anouk

    www.stylememories.com

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